Tuesday, November 24, 2009

My Miscarriage Story at 7 Weeks


I wanted to tell my story after doing hours of research on the computer and finding it so frustrating that I couldn't find any pictures or anything that resembled what was happening to me.

PLEASE NOTE: I AM TELLING MY STORY IN AS MUCH DETAIL TO HELP WOMEN IN THE SAME SITUATION. THE PICTURES AND WRITING ARE A TRUE ACCOUNT, BUT ARE NOT PRETTY!

My hope in sharing my story is that with the wonders of the internet someone who is going through what I went through will be able to find the answers they need, as I wasn't
able to. I do have to start by saying that I do have a wonderful OBGYN Doctor and staff, they are caring and will answer all your questions. But I was still unprepared for what was going to happen to me.
Here is my story.


I am currently 35 years old and have been blessed with 3 beautiful healthy children. I have had a few very early miscarriages 2 before we started trying to have children, one in between my two girls and then another in May of 2009, they all occur s
hortly after a positive pregnancy test somewhere between 38 and 44 days. Though these are upsetting and sad, they seemed to be easier to get over as the bleeding, etc. just feels like a normal period.
After the loss in May we were told to wait two cycles before we tried again. It took us a little longer to get pregnant this time as my husband travels for a living and wasn't always home at that opportune time :).
Finally in October I was thrilled to have a positive pregnancy test! I think I took 4 as the last time in May they were all very faint. The test were dark and lit up right away! I counted down the days past 38,39,40,41,44...finally the day came for my first doctors appointment and ultrasound. With three kids hubby had to stay at home, but I went in excited to see our little baby and his or her heartbeat. I do have to say that the one thing I was nervous about was I had no morning sickness with this pregnancy. I had kept a journal with all of my pregnancies and was already sick and on medication at this point in my pregnancy. That should have been my first warning sign that something wasn't right.
I always cling to something I read that if you see the heart beat there is only a 2% chance of miscarriage from that point. I sat down for my ultra-sound and was so relieved to see that little heart beat. But that was short lived. Unfortunately there were pools of blood around the baby which you can see on either side of the sac and the heart beat was only 86 beats per minute. It should have been around 120 BPM.The baby was also only measuring 6 weeks when I was 7 weeks and 3 days. I was told it would be a 50/50 chance of survival.
I went home with such a mix of feelings. I wanted my baby to live and to be pregnant, but I also was fearful of the baby surviving and having medical problems as it didn't seem to be a healthy baby. I just prayed that if God wanted me to have this baby he or she would be healthy but ultimately it was His will.

My appointment was on a Monday, Tuesday evening I was walking up the stairs and I felt a couple drops, I ran to the bathroom and I had begun to bleed. It was more of a brownish discharge like what comes out towards the end of your period. Nothing heavy, I could have worn a panty liner. Wednesday morning I started having cramping, in the days before I did have some strange feelings, but I thought maybe it was just my uterus stretching and growing, I called the doctors office and they had me come in for another ultra-sound. I was relieved in a way, I knew I was loosing this pregnancy and obviously it was not a healthy baby, but sad at the same time. I went in and sadly my baby was still alive, but barely. Now the heart rate was only 46 beats per minute. This was horrible, the thought that this little baby inside me was loosing it's fight to stay alive and there was nothing I could do about it. They informed me that unfortunately this was probably going to be a long process. They couldn't do a D&C as the baby was still a viable life, of which I completely understood and agreed with. I was just so upset that this couldn't end quickly. The pools of blood around the baby were gone and most likely what was coming out of me. They sent me home and told me it could happen over the weekend, but it could also be a week, two, maybe more.
I went home sad and depressed. I was having contractions. This was the one thing that makes me upset about all the books out there, they address the pain you feel during a miscarriage as "bad menstral cramps" they weren't cramps, they were contractions! I would compare the contractions to the ones you feel in the first stage of labor, they don't take your breath away, but they don't feel good either! By Friday morning I was in so much pain I called into my doctor and asked for something stronger than Tylonol. Unfortunately I couldn't take it until my husband got in from out of town that evening. At this point I was passing kidney colored clots. I like how one woman described them, they almost look like fish swimming in the toilet as they come out. I had a bucket at first to go in, as they ask you to try and save the actual tissue of the baby, placenta,etc. I would suggest getting a fish net, or in my case I took a sand strainer toy of my kids. The kidney clots would mostly go right through it, but the tissue that I needed to bring in wouldn't. Friday night was the worst, the pain killers did nothing but make me drowsy and didn't take the pain of the contractions away. They came about every 2-5 minutes and if you have gone through labor before, I would compare it to the second stage of labor, just concentrated in a small space as your uterus is not as big. I hardly slept all night and was freaking out as so much of what I had read on the internet said that it only got worse right up to the delivery of the baby. That did not happen for me, I got up at 6:30am and plop right in the toilet is the pictures below. I thought that this was everything, the placenta, baby in the sac (which was later confirmed) You can see in the picture, the pointy ball at the right is the sac with the tiny baby inside. I thought I would be able to see the actual baby, but was later told that it was so small, no legs, arms, etc. But again I couldn't find anything on the internet. So I kept fishing stuff out of the toilet.I didn't have the heavy heavy bleeding I was told to expect, nor what I read on the internet. Honestly I've had periods that I've bleed more. Most everything came out in the toilet. I had one more tissue come out on Sunday afternoon which is the last picture. You can see the difference between tissue on the right, looks like a triangle and the kidney clots on the left. I went to the doctor the following Monday, the ultra-sound scan showed everything was out. My own doctor was surprised when I told him that I hardly bled. He went to look at the picture below for himself. He said it was text book perfect. They rarely see the entire placenta, baby & sac come out all together. I hope my story helps you. I have cried for over a week now, and am feeling better each day. I am sure God will bless us with that 4th baby in the future. Hopefully I'll have a post in the future with my progress. The one book I would highly recommend is TAKING CHARGE OF YOUR FERTILITY BY TONI WESHLER. This book has helped me get pregnant with all my children and was the most informative on miscarriages.
If anyone has a story of their miscarriage after healthy pregnancies, and their ability to get pregnant after. Please Email me. If you have any questions I am more than happy to answer what I can. Email me at jblacruz9@aol.com. Janet

40 comments:

  1. I miscarried at 12 weeks. This was 18 months or so after my son was born and another 10 months or so before I conceived my first daughter. It is possible. Eat wisely, take care of yourself, and rest. This is really the best you can do.
    Many many healing thoughts and blessing for sharing.

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  2. I think I had a miscarriage but I'm not quite sure. I had light bleeding a huge blood clot. Not a circle more lik a rectangle. I also felt discomfort on my lower stomach...my doc said it prolly wasnt nothin but I wasn't bleeding heavy but I dnt think she understands tha size of it (I have a pic if anybody wants to c). I'm very confused and scared...somebody HELP!!

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  3. Anita J From California city,Ca Im going thur the same thing right now Im really sad about it Im 20 years old and scared so this helped me to know what Im about to go thur

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  4. I have had 2 miscarriges and it was the worst time of my whole life ...i want a baby so bad i am 21 with no babies married for 4 yrs and he has 2 babies who i love very much my first miscarrige i lost everything like you in your picture but i didn't save mine the 2nd time i didn't even know they told me i was fine :( i m so sorry for you loss

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  5. Thank you for sharing your story. I just miscarried my first pregnancy and it has been incredibly emotionally painful. My husband and I were excited because we have a lot of friends who are having kids now. I don't want to try again for a while, but I know that when the time is really right God will give us the baby we've been waiting for.

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  6. I really appreciate this. Last weekend I experienced every single step you described, but I had no idea what it could be. One of my sisters told me it could have been a miscarriage and when I looked up images to confirm the "sac" I saw in the toilet I found your story. It is very heavy on my heart to know this has happened, but I am glad I know for sure what is going on.

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  7. i just miscarried last month. i was carrying twins(i didnt know until i passed the second one. one came out with the placenta, and the baby was attached to it. the first one had died at 7 weeks. i had them at 10 weeks. The second was alive, and only died because the placenta came out with the first one...and im glad i came across your story. i am a military wife, currently, away from family, away from friends, and my husband is gone. I haven't gone to bed yet, tonight/today has truly been really hard..and i was on google, looking up stuff about miscarriages, and coping, and somehow i found your blog ...

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  8. i am 21 and have two boy one at four and the other at four months. i woke up from a nap and bleed a lot never seen that much and big blood clots bigger then an egg wan ten to go to the hospital but didn't want to wait for hrs so i just waited for the next day to the Dr.s and find out that i had placenta in me i ask if it was a miscarriage they said no its from your lest lobar is that even possible to have placenta in your body for four months or was it a miscarriage help

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    1. I'm not a doctor but, in my experience, all of the doctors I've dealt with have been very keen to use an ultrasound to make sure that everything has passed from my uterus. Anything left behind can potentially cause infection and untreated uterine infections can sometimes cause fertility problems later on. If I were in your shoes, I would insist on a transvaginal ultrasound.

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  9. I discovered at 6 weeks that mine had stopped growing at 5 weeks. I had spotted once in the fifth week (very slight, brownish and only lasted a day) and mentioned it when I met with my doctor a week later. She ordered an immediate ultrasound. It took another 2 weeks before I started bleeding with large clots the size of my palm and ended up in the ER because I bled so much so quickly I was afraid of hemorrhaging. The bleeding slowed down as quickly as it started and I was given Misoprostol to help pass the larger pieces. They looked exactly this photo — a solid little kidney bean of smooth tissue connected to a larger piece of lighter tissue. I wish I'd been better informed of what a miscarriage looks like so that I could have known what to expect. Thank you for sharing what my doctors didn't.

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  10. This is exactly what mine looked like- Just half an hour ago. I have been bleeding and cramping and passing big clots for over a week now. I was 10 weeks, we found out the baby stopped growing a little after 6 weeks. I didn't know if the clots were "the miscarriage" completely. so my doctor prescribed misoprostol. I took one does yesterday which caused cramping and more big clotting and bleeding. Then late last night I had more cramping (contractions, really) This morning I bled and then passed exactly the same as the pic- about the size of a lemon. I was shocked and immediately fell to the floor crying cause I had no idea it would come out like that. And I sadly found it difficult to flush the toilet. I'm glad you posted your pic and story. This truly helped me just seeing this, like mine was. I was NOT expecting to see the kidney bean sized baby and the huge sac. Is an image that will probably be forever burned into my mind.

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  11. I am currently having a miscarriage as i speak...im so confused though because monday i had brown discharge so i went to the ER they did an altrasound and said the baby died around six weeks i would be 11 weeks today im still bleeding very lightly with just a little tissue...why has the sac not came out yet i want it to be over with. what makes me really mad is my doctors dont seem concerned they want me to come in for an altrasound monday...ive been feeling so sick to my stomach...i would think that my body would have passed it all by now.

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  12. Thank you because I'm miscarrying right now too and was trying to determine if any of the clots going in the toilet are "my baby". I had not confirmed exactly how far along I was so I was looking for images from 5-7 weeks but I only found this. The image on the right looks much like the stuff I've gotten so I think it's tissue but not yet the little one. So I'll keep hanging in there, this is harder then I imaged a m/c to be, not that I thought they'd be easy...but the questions are surprising. My first pregnancy (my son's 3) was hard to acheive, but easy in the sense of everything was healthy.

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  13. Thank you so much for this page. I had a scan last Tues which revealed no heartbeat. I chose the expectant method as believed my body would do the right thing. I was told my pregnancy was 'small' by the midwife and it would be like a heavy period with lots of white lines in it!? I was 10 weeks but stopped growing at 6/7 weeks they said. Started to miscarry on Saturday - some brownish discharge and for the next day. On Sunday night had terrible pains - I had very heavy periods in the past when I had an IUD and I can say these pains were nothing like period pains they came in waves and I felt a terrible pressure, I assume these are the same as early contractions. When I got up in morning some tissue passed into the loo - about kidney bean size I thought that was it due to what the midwife had said. Luckily I looked on internet and found this .... I still wasn't sure if I had finished but was glad I read this page when the next bit happened or I think I would have been terrified. All Monday felt OK - as with you I had very little actual bleeding. Around tea time pain came in again very suddenly. Again in waves and enormous pressure like I wanted to push. After around half an hour this subsided. I got up from toilet ( had passed some small clots) and out came sac, placenta etc mine was about the size if a golf ball and intact. I was shocked initially but weirdly felt immediately better knowing it was truly over. Thank you again for this page as otherwise I don't know what I would have done ... I wish they would tell you this info as I would have been so much better prepared.

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  14. Hi, my name is Dawn, first of all I want to start by saying I am sorry for your loss. I am 40 years old with 5 children, I had clips put on my tubes 7 yrs ago this coming June, have had (before my clips) two miscarriages. A few months ago, I was rushed in ambulance to hosptial beacuse I had very heavy bleeding, clots and was stuck on my toilet for about 1/2 hr with extremly bad contraction pains, had to breath through them, and then suddenly found myself actually having to push, two hard pushes that passed a very large (size of my hand) tissue membrane, (nurse at hospital said it lookied like brain matter!), I took it with me in container and they sent it to pathology. I ended up spending the night overnight in hospital, they did ultrasound, it apparently was fine, just some stuff from bleeding and such there, they did pregnancy test (which I might add that past tests came out negative when pathology came back positve so I don't believe them), the doctor said that it was probably one of two things, either a misscarriage or tissue membrane that formed from too much estrogen (but I was only on pill for ONE MONTH), I went to my family dotor shortly after for test resylts and she was confused and di not fully understand them, she agreed with me that; how could a tissue membrane that big form in just one moths time? I was in the hospital the month prior to this also for heavy bleeding and cramps and smaller tissue passed, they found nothing on ultrasound then either. This test, my doctor told me it said, there were changes, not sure what that means either? Still to this day, I am not sure what it was. When I had the two miscarriages in the past, I didn't have to push them out but had all the other same symptome, including, nausea, dizziness, etc, all the usual pregnency symptoms I have with my 5 children. I am so frustrated and just wan to put my mind at ease one way or the other. I am looking to have my tubes reversed as my husband and I want to have a baby. I am just hoping that some day soon I can get some answers from someone. I don't expect that you can help, but really wated to talk to someone that may understand and has unfortunately gone through similar situations as me. Any suggestions, or comments or anything, may be a great help, thank you for your time in reading this and take care.

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  15. Thank you so much for sharing this in such useful details. I had a miscarriage this morning. I have been going through exact things you described you went through. It's amazing. And exact same way, a plop in the toilet this morning and the whole thing, placenta, sack and the baby, looked exactly like in your pictures. I needed to see this to be sure, as today is Sunday and can only see my doc tomorrow. I fished it out from the toilet too. Although I have been bleeding for the last one week, I am not bleeding since the baby came out. Again, thanks for recording and sharing. I hope you had that 4th baby you wanted by now. Take care :)

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  16. Hi all....
    I am actually experiencing a miscarriage as we speak. I am lucky enough to have a beautiful healthy daughter that will be four next week. Dad and i are divorced and i was in a long relationship with someone i care for deeply when we broke up on sunday.
    I woke up this morning very early with terrible back pain and weird cramps. I am on loestrin 24 so i rarely even experience pms or get my period but i was in ER in early february for my stomach and was tested for pregnancy and was negative... So when i passed this chunk of grayish brownish blood streaked semi gelatinious yuck, i was sort of alarmed. I showered and went to work early and the cramping got worse. The blood was more red with small flecks of gray in it and i was noticing an odor. I called the doc and got in right away. He told me during the exam that he was pretty certain i was having a miscarriage and that based on the size of my uterus he didnt think i had been pregnant for long, 3 maybe 4 weeks but that it seemed like my body would take care of it on its own. Boy is it.. I am in so much pain.
    This on top of my break up... I know its for the best because i am in no position to raise another kid alone... But talk about salt in the wound.
    I dont wish this on anyone.

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  17. Hello,
    I found out I was pregnant on 12/24/11 and was super excited as my husband and I had literally just started trying to get pregnant. On 1/31/12 we went in for our first ultrasound and was told it was twins the same sac! Then they looked a little bit closer and there were no heartbeat for either baby, they had stopped developing at 5 to 6 weeks and I was supposed to be 9 weeks along at that point. My heart instantly sank, but I knew that miscarriages are really common and it doesn't mean this is the end.
    I was given two options D&C or Natural, and I wanted to go natural since this was my very first pregnancy and I'm only 27. I didn't want to run the risk of having bad enough scar tissue that I wouldn't ever be able to get pregnant again.
    A few weeks passed and nothing happened, in fact i still felt very much pregnant (puking, bloated, and exhausted).... super frustrating considering I knew they weren't alive.
    Finally on 2/20/12 I started to spot dark brown blood (old blood) so I knew it was coming. Then on 2/23/12 and 2/24/12 I was in incredible pain and had to miss work, I passed some blood clots but didn't really bleed that much and didn't feel like that could've been it???
    I went in for an exam and doc said to wait it out another couple weeks; that more would pass at some point due to my HCG levels were at 502 still and my cervix was still slightly dilated. So I waited a couple more weeks with no results, in fact there were points were I didn't even need a pad... talk about confusing!
    Finally the doc said to come in for an ultrasound on 3/15/12 because something could be wrong since I was still miscarrying. The ultrasound showed an empty sac still in my uterus. At that point I asked for Cytotec because I was still very against getting a D&C. I waited until 3/16/12 to take the pills because I didn't want to miss anymore work. The cramping from the pills really wasn't that bad, but the amount of blood for about two to three hours was crazy. At one point I was pretty sure I had passed the sac.
    I went in for another ultrasound on 3/22/12 and it showed the sac was now gone! I was so excited and thought this whole ordeal was over. They told me it looked like there were a couple more blood clots I needed to pass and I should be good to go!
    A week passed and nothing happened, I continued passing lots of blood clots not just a few. I was getting really stressed out as this was effecting my work, and my life in general. On 3/27/12 I was in sooo much pain again that it felt like another miscarriage! I couldn't believe I was still going through this! I stuck it out until 3/29/12 when I finally decided to call my doctor to see if something more was going on. Doctor wanted me to come in the next day to run tests as I might be experiencing infection.
    Literally after I got off the phone with the doctor i felt the urge to push. I went to the bathroom and this alien like thing came out of me with a huge glob of blood behind it. I grabbed on to this thing and put it in a baggy, because it freaked me out. This is what was causing me so much pain for the last few days, and at that point I felt instant relief. I tried calling the doc back but got "nurses on call" they wanted me to go to the er as I might need a d&c. I stuck it out until my unplanned appointment for the next day.
    Went to my exam today 3/30/12 and my cervix is finally closed. The object that came out of my was the placenta. The doctor couldn't believe we didn't see this on the ultrasound. At this point I should just have light spotting for a week and then it should be over. I have another doctors appointment on 4/5/11 to check my hcg levels and to get another exam to make sure everything is okay.
    I can't believe I went through this for nearly two months, it has been soooo painful (physically and emotionally). I'm so thankful it's over!

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  18. My story is close to the post above mine...although I didn't have twins. When I found out I was pregnant on March 18th and confirmed by my doctors office on the 19th, I was so excited!! I have a 21 year old son and always wanted more kids. I didn't even care that the father and I was on good terms. I was determined to have and raise another baby. My son turned out wonderful and he was so excited to be a part of his little brother/sister's life. I went in for my first ultrasound on 4/24/2012. I was referred to this OB by my neighbor...she thought I would like her and I immediately did. It was unfortunate we couldn't share good news together because when she gave me the ultrasound using the vaginal probe, she said my baby was only showing about 6 weeks and not the 9 I was suppose to be and that she couldn't see a heart beat and she should. I immediately lost it! I was so devastated and so heartbroken!!! It wasn't my first miscarriage but it was my first pregnancy in 14 years and it's just broken my heart into little pieces. After some more ultrasound tests at the diagnostic clinic the next morning and lab work it was confirmed that my baby had stopped developing at 6 weeks. Could it get any worse?? I know I will be able to pick up the pieces eventually and I haven't told my son because he has finals at school next week and I don't want him to be distracted but it will be a very long time before I can get over this because who knows if I will ever get pregnant again!! :(

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  19. I have had 2 confirmed miscarriages. My husband and I had a healthy baby girl one year after we got married. The pregnancy was perfect and I also never even had morning sickness. Then 2 years later we decided to have another baby. I got pregnant quickly and my period was late so I had a test and they said it was negative. So I waited another week or 2 and had another test and they said it was positive. Then about 2 weeks later I started bleeding. I never had any pain or anything, just maybe mild cramps. It was just like I was having a period. I never passed any tissue as far as I know. I think a baby just never really formed. The same thing happened to me another 2 years later. Just as soon as I got a positive test (like being a week late with my period) I started bleeding. They told me my hormone levels were still up but I was losing the pregnancy. Again no tissue or bad pains. I probably wasn't along far enough. But this strange thing has happened to me a few times: I would think I was having a normal period, but I would look at my pad and there would be this thing that looked like a little deflated balloon with a string on it. It wasn't made of blood, it was actually like skin. They were about the size of a quarter or so and with a little tube-like thing almost like it was a little sac and umbilical cord. In fact it happened 2 days ago the last time and I remember I was in bed and all of a sudden I had this bad pain that lasted a few seconds and then when I got up I found that. What happened this time was I was getting started back on my birth control pills and I started them a little late in my cycle but I wasn't concerned about the timing, I just wanted to get started on them because I have so much pms. I was on them for about a week or a week and a half and I started spotting. I spotted for about 5 days and then it stopped. I figured it might be normal when first starting birth control. Then it was just time to go off the pills and have a period and it started, and then the balloon thing came out a day later. And like I said I have had that exact same thing happen before; it looked the same so it was not some random piece of clot. I am 46 years old and so being pregnant and/or having a baby is not so smart-maybe we should be more careful :) I wonder now just how many babies I have up there in heaven?

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    1. Momma65, I am so glad someone else had a similar experience as I did in regards to passing this strange balloon like tissue. I've been searching the internet since it happened to me yesterday to figure out what it was and wasn't finding anything until I saw your post here! I am around 6.5 weeks pregnant and am scheduled for my dating ultrasound next Wednesday. However I started spotting on Monday night and then Tuesday morning I looked down at my pantyliner and this thing was there! I didn't have any pain or cramps. I took a picture of it, it looks exactly like how you described. I went to the doctors that morning, showed her the picture, she didn't have any comment besides "that is a fairly large piece of clot to pass". Did you ever find out what it was??? I have no idea what is happening, whether I've miscarried, in the process, or if me and baby are fine. It's terrifying. Doctor just sent me to test my HCG levels after the appointment and then re-test on Monday and then do the ultrasound on Wednesday. I hate this waiting and not knowing!!!

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  20. thank you for sharing your expeirience with us all online, it must have taken a lot to put this together but i am sure it will be very helpful to all those in that situation like myself and my partner who have just gone through it ourselfs at around the same time period as yourself. I have been looking for answers online like you have and this i have found very helpful!

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  21. I am so glad someone was willing to share thier experience and photos, it has really helped me to relax.
    this past tuesday i figured i must be pregnant as i was a week late, so i walked impatiently 3 miles to the store to get a test and 3 miles back, i used it as soon as i got home and it was a very strong positive right away, but as i wiped from peeing on the test there was spotting, and it only got heavier through the day and the next day, this morning ( thursday ) i used my Divacup as i ran out of pads ( i dont buy them anymore and hubby is at work) and when i used the washroom later i dumped the diva cup in the toilet,a large mass fell with a pretty decent splash, and sunk to the bottom of the toilet. I knew exactly what it was and out of curiosity and the lack of heart to flush him/her and scooped it out with an old swiffer duster handle ( i knew i wasnt going to be using it anymore) and put it in a small cup.. to my surprise there were 2 babies :( i was having twins :(!
    I am really feeling guilty.. i do not know if they died prior, or if they died because of my walk to the store, and even tho i didnt exactly want to be having more babies yet.. i feel very sad. i just hope both of thier little souls go help out someone who is having trouble concieving <3
    rest in peace Twin A and twin B <3

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  22. I'm finally looking for some support online. We lost our lil boy (16 weeks on Tuesday) I was having a lot of stomach pain monday night which I thought was just the stomach flu going around, went to the bathroom at 6am and the bleeding started....I realized I was in full out labor. It was awful, I got to the hospital and they gave me some pain medicine, I just wanted to be put out, I couldn't bear having to be asked to push, as I had felt the need to. the doctor assisted and the baby was taken.
    I had gone in early (around 6 weeks or so) for some light spotting that had scared me. they did an ultrasound and said it must have been a placental tear, but it looked like it had healed. The doctor told us that it was a beautifully formed baby boy, but the placenta may have had a tear, or an abruption, they are still doing some tests. This is the first we knew it was a boy. We took him home and burried him under a tree that our friends gave us. I never thought how hard it would be to do this and how much love we have put into this lil guy. Our 2 1/2 year old is so much support. We are just numb. I'm really not sure how to greive all this. Of course it's different for everyone. I just am so sad right now. all our hopes, dreams, for this little guy, gone.....We are so happy that we were able to bring him home and make a memorial for him. To us a life is a life, no matter how long or short. He will live in our hearts. Keep us strong baby, mommy promises to send you hugs and kisses every night on angels wings.

    To everyone else experiencing this. Use each other. this is a huge outlet and I'm so happy to have found it today.

    god bless

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  23. Thank you so much for posting this! I experienced virtually the same thing 7 years ago during my first marriage. We had tried and tried to get pregnant. Then this one time (my periods were always messed up) I was painting my kitchen and suddenly I had awful cramps worse then menstrual ones, and suddenly I felt something slip out of me. It was a blob just like you showed here. I was never sure if it was just a blood clot, I always wondered if it could have been a baby. My doctors never gave me a answer. But I know now it must have been a miscarriage. It saddens me, yet gives me hope. Maybe I can actually get pregnant. Thank you!

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  24. I was 8 weeks yesterday and went to the ER on tuesday for bleeding. They told me to come back today to see what my HCG levels were. Sadly I lost my baby and I'm so sad :( I don't really wanna talk about it to anyone I know cuz I feel awkward when I cry. I just don't know what to do. This helped me in the fact that I know I will be able to have more children but I'm still heartbroken.

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  25. I think recently I may have miscarried. I've never really experienced anything like I did last week. It started with horrible cramp-like pains. Let me go back a bit first...I was getting sick/felt nauseous and I was extremely tired prior to this. I would wake up in the morning only to pass out on the couch for hours soon after that. Prior to the cramping pain my boobs were feeling extremely full and sore to the touch. Back to the cramp-like pains... I was extremely worried about them and asked my husband for help. He told me to take pain meds, so I did, and headed into work. The pain medication did not work and the pain kept on through my 4-6 hour shift. I noticed spotting when I went to use the restroom that night. Then the next morning I woke up with horrible bleeding. I had tissue and clots that I was passing as well. This lasted 2-3 days before it became very light. The bleeding went on for about 6 days after I noticed the spotting. Then it stopped. I had cramping pain again today and noticed more tissue passing. It was two little clots the size of this dot . and they were attached by a string that was the thickness of sewing thread. Could I have passed twins? I'm almost certain I miscarried, as that was so very different from my normal periods...not to mention it was 6-12 days earlier than my regularly scheduled period. I wish I knew for sure. Any feedback on this is welcome my email is ba7686@gmail.com Thanks!

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  26. I just wanted to say thank you for this post. I miscarried our second baby just recently. (The first was so early that there was possibly no implantation, so I really had no idea what to expect.)

    We went in to the ER for spotting and they did an ultrasound and found that our precious baby had no heartbeat. Your post really helped me!

    www.weepingandjoy.blogspot.com

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  27. Hi thank you for your sharing your sad story i hope by now you had a good pregnancy again if not i wish so in the near future.i am having a miscarriage right now just this morning i went the ER and felt so weak and faint the nurse came and took me to the room and the doctor gave me a good pain reliever better than tynelol 3 .i had had cramping and contractions for over 24 hours.pain came and goes.i was in my 10 weeks pregnancy while the ultrasound shows that its only 6 weeks.the same problem happened to me last year i misscariage in my 9 th week while the baby died in week 5.its very sad when the doctor say that we can not make any further invistagation until the third miscarriage .while its really painful...sad...and emotionally killing.

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  28. Thank you for sharing these pictures. Im 7weeks and 1 day today and just passing tiny blood clots. Ive been spotting for two and a half weeks now but hcg still rising and cervix still closed and this baby still had a heartbeat the other day. I was 6 weeks 5days and my hcg was at 190,000. HB was 130. But today with the smaller clots and the cramping in my back. I thought maybe I had to poop that's the feeling im getting. This is my 7th pregnancy so im on edge. Ive had only one live birth. Please pray for me and thank you for sharing your photographs I find it comforting knowing what to look for. And god bless you all as I know how your feeling and pray im able to hold ono this baby. TY-Deeba

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  29. Thank you for sharing your story and the photos. It is so true that there is so much information on the internet about pregnancies but not enough detailed information on what to expect during a miscarriage. I am 41 years old and in the middle of a miscarriage which begun over a week ago. It is my second pregnancy loss. My first pregnancy resulted in a termination at 4.5 weeks as the baby had trisomy 13 (chromosomal issue). I chose to have an induction rather than a d&c at that time. It was the worst time of my life. Two years later I got pregnant again in July 2013. At my dating ultrasound in early September we found out that I was 6 weeks pregnant however, the baby's heartbeat was at 80 bpm which is very low. A few days later I experienced brownish-pinkish discharge on/off through the days as if it was the beginnings of a period. I went to emergy and had my hcg levels checked which confirmed that my hcg levels were at 16,800, again a low with a 6 week pregnancy. The hospital doctor sent me for an ultrasound the next day which confirmed the baby's heartbeat was still at 80. The radiology doctor told me that my pregnancy was not progressing well. I went back to my family doctor who confirmed that this pregnancy will be resulting in a miscarriage. She asked me if I'd like to have a d/c or allow nature to take it's course. I chose the latter. In week 1 I continued to have pinkish-brownish discharge with no cramps and towards the end of week 1 I started to bleed darker blood like a period and started to feel light cramps. By beginning of week 2 (currently on), on early Monday morning I began to feel light pain that kept coming and going every 2 minutes lasting for 45 seconds. I had the pain for a couple of years. I took Advil and went back to bed and was able to get through my work day. That evening I began to feel uterine cramps which continued to come and go (contractions). I took Advil and the pain didn't subside for 2-3 hours. I could feel the blood dripping in my pad as I lay on the couch. I'd go to the bathroom and pass blood and probably clots. There were one or two times when I went felt a pain somewhere in the birth canal and I went to the bathroom and felt something push through at separate times. In the toilet it looked like dark red tissue and/or blood clots. I started to feel relief after that and was able to sleep better that night. The next morning (today) I decided to take a sick day from work and take some rest. During the afternoon, I started to feel those cramps again but they weren't as persistent and painful as last night. I didn't pass any clots or tissue. I have taken Advil since then and appear to be fine. I assume that my miscarriage is not over yet as I am still bleeding but not profusely. I have an app with my family doc on Wednesday at which time I'll ask her if she can test my hcg levels to see how close I am to the end of this miscarriage and to get an ultrasound. I am so sorry to hear about all your losses. It's very sad that women who want to conceive have to experience this. I wish all of you love, healing, peace and healthy pregnancies for those of us who are still trying.

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  30. Hi thanks for the stories. The day I turned 17 weeks I was in pain so i went to the ER and they took some urine and told me i had a UTI. The next morning i was still in pain I got up to use the bathroom and and the baby came out and it was still alive the heart was still beating and it was moving so my BF called 911 and they told me to get off the toilet and lay on the floor and put a towel under the baby. The ambulance came and they cut the umbilical cord they said there was nothing they could do. I was hurt. I couldn't believe that was happening. the doctors couldn't tell me what happened, i really want to know what was wrong.

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  31. JP I'm so sorry for your terrible loss. May God comfort you. Hugs.

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  32. Thank you so much for sharing this heartbreaking story and pictures. I've searched online for years but never came up with anything to show me what I've been through in the past. I have a blood disorder that causes spontaneous miscarriages and I don't think I've ever made it past 3 months. I'm currently going through another and honestly quit counting after the first few years. I've never been blessed with having a child and I just turned 45 today. I just suffer in silence now since my husband would say insensitive things regarding it. I suppose it was his own way of dealing with it. Since being diagnosed with this disorder 3 years ago it would explain why I've not been able to have a child in the last 10 years of marriage. Congratulations to all that have been blessed.

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  33. Two days ago, I woke up to find brown spotting. I called my midwife, who said it was most likely because I had had intercourse two nights before and to let her know if it turned red. I went to work and on first break went to the bathroom and saw the spotting had turned red, and it wasn't spotting as much as period-type coming out. I called their office again and was told to head in about an hour later for an ultrasound. I called my husband's work and had him sent home. He met me at home and we went to the clinic. The ultrasound tech gooped me up and started sliding around. I immediately spotted the baby. She asked if I was sure on my dates (I was supposed to be 11 wks 2 days) because I was only measuring 7 weeks. I measured small with my first baby and he was fine. I said I was positive on the dates, gave the first day of LMP and expected due date. Then I asked her if there was a heartbeat. Sadly, she said, "I'm not seeing one." She then went to get the midwife. The midwife looked at the pics on the ultrasound and apologized but confirmed the embryo was not viable. She told me what to expect. Yesterday, I kept going to the bathroom and felt the tissue leave my body in about 5 trips. Altogether, it took from about 2p-9p. The embryo came out in my maxi pad. I held it. I told it I was sorry but that it was not meant to be. I asked that the baby forgive me if it was anything I had done (was working on quitting smoking at 7 weeks). I did flush it because the ground was too cold and frozen to dig a hole outside (plus we had just moved and didn't have a shovel). Today, I am having some lower back cramping but nothing too bad. The bleeding has given way to spotting. I am taking it easy this week and was given a doctor's note to take the week off work. The midwife and I agree that it was most likely an abnormality that caused the baby to stop growing. I have a healthy (and ornery) 20 month old son, so I know I can have healthy babies. This one just wasn't meant to be one.

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  34. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. There should be more information and pictures out there, in this age of having everything at our fingertips. We should be able to learn about our bodies and what is happening to us. Thank you all for being brave and sharing. I am so sorry for your losses.

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  35. Thank you, for the insight on miscarriages, I wish I had found such a site when I had my 2nd miscarriage 3 years ago at 8 weeks, I still have it complete in my freezer, I am so grateful I have a 20 month old and would love another baby to complete our family, sadly am having another miscarriage as I type at 8w2d, we saw a beating heart at 5w6d, I had non doubling betas so expected this would be the outcome.
    It's really comforting to see what can be expected especially for ladies having their 1st miscarriage.

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  36. I think I may be miscarrying as I write this. I am 6 wks 4 days pregnant and have been experiencing bleeding on and off for the past week. All my pregnancy symptoms are gone also. I have contacted the hospital and the won't scan me until 7 weeks. I am beside my self as had two healthy pregnancies prior so have no idea what to expect. Any advice would be welcome.

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  37. Thank you for this blog. I'm miscarring right now and I too was crying so hard just thinking that I've flushed the "baby"'away. I haven't seen anything like this yet. Or maybe I didn't notice. I was 5 wks and 2 days along. This was my first miscarriage.

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  38. I've had two defiant miscarriages. Nether showed up on pee test which is normal for me as I don't normally show up for 8-12 weeks. The first time I my son was three and jumped on my stomach while I was napping and I started cramping immediately then started bleeding this was similar to a heavy period with mild cramping and I passed what looked like bits wet toilet paper. Currently I'm going through another I'm 7 weeks and haven't showed up on test yet but doc. saw indications of pregnancy on internal exam and sent me for an internal ultersound but I was to early to show anything other than some kind of strip that is common in pregnancy before sac forms(I was 3-4 wks). Reason for the test is I have been having a lot of symptoms common w/ tubal pregnancy and she was trying to rule it out(cramping particularly with light exertion), I had desided to ride the wheel chair cart to prevent more cramping while shopping and my son who is now 15(same son) tried to help by getting the bag of dog food for me, he desided instead of putting it in the basket it would fit better between my legs on the floor of the cart. Which would of been fine as there was plenty of room for it there had he placed it gently in but he got it between me and the cart handle and let go letting it just fall into place ! I did everything I could to deflect the blow but this was a 50 lb bag of dog food and so the baby got a pretty good bump. I started mildly cramping immediately, we went home and I laid down and got a severe head ache and chills. I sleep for about 4 hours still mildly cramping but mostly head ache and chills. After sleeping I felt better so got up and tried to sweep floor but had to go pee. Noticed a blood brown mucusy (looked like a brown glob of snot) glob. I thought that maybe a mucus plug and went and layed down. Over the next couple hours bleeding increased and turned bright red with some small clots then bleeding slowed down and almost stopped blood back to brown. That night my back hurt very bad and could not get comfortable every position either put painful pressure on my stomach or made my back hurt. Next morning was bleeding light red blood again. I took a vestrol and Tylenol for the pain, vestrol is a muscle relaxer given during pregnancy. And sleep for 3-4 hours when I walk up I was bleeding red blood with clots again the bleeding slowed by bedtime. Today I'm bleeding lightly red blood and my back is killing me and I'm cramping pretty good debating on trying another vestrol or going in for a DNC. I prefer to it pass on it own if it will but I am watching for signs of problems and will go in if need be.

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